My Darkest Point Of Life ?
January 28, 2008 by cherleechan
I don’t know what is happening to my life. It seems everything is going in wrong path. I feel even God is leaving me. Or if He is not, then He is happily pouring a lot of problems to me without hesitating to wait for me to solve the previous problems. Is this a way He loves me? Happy to look the suffering me?
Every single second of my life I have to think about solutions of so many problems : business problems, relationship problems, even my own life problems. Meanwhile I have to do a lot of things by myself. I don’t know if I am a woman or a man since physically I am a woman but everyday I do man’s work. I lift heavy stuff everyday, I ride public vehicles and have to walk down some distances with that heavy stuff just to sell a little number of my items, to lengthen my life a little bit.
I am going frustrated, if not mad. Very few understand about my frustration. Maybe only 1 or 2 people who really underwent the same sufferings before. The rest are only blaming me to be such emotional-impatient person. Do I want to be such person? Am I that mad to want to become one?
All I can say that, if you know nothing about suffer, just shut your mouth. I am struglling for my life everyday. I am crying every night. I am more than enough frustrating to let anybody trying to give me lectures about little mistakes I’ve done. I have larger concerns to be thought.
Sabar buuu…
Tau lagu Pelangi Kasih ? Maybe it will make you feel comfort.
“Tuhan-mu tak akan memberi ular beracun pada yang minta roti.
Cobaan yang engkau alami, tak melebihi kekuatanmu.
Tangan Tuhan sedang merenda suatu karya yang agung mulia, saat nya kan tiba nanti,
kau lihat pelangi kasih nya”
1 Corinthians 10:13 - No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.